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hate to be alone... but scare of being in the crowd...

i hate the feeling of loneliness...
yet i am scare of being in the crowd...
i wished to be understood..
and yet i kept quiet...
i need someone to hear me out,
listen to my sadness, listen to my heart...
but i can't open up..
i can't find u..
a true fren who cares to listen,
cares to care..
my fren... do u know?
under my cheerful appearances,
there's also sadness and troubles..
just like everyone...
how can i find u?
a fren that is realli a "fren"..
a fren that can cheer me up..
tell me stories of life..
and accompany me pass every obstacle
and rainy period of liife...

i can do it!

i can do it!!
i can!
i must believe in myself!

Chun Zhen

understand

medium pimple is hard to use!!

todae went sji for frenly with safsa guys!
hoho..
won 3 lost 3..
luckily overall safsa still win! haha!
first few pple i played with... i dunnoe how to use my medium pip..
no even one ball i hit in..
but the last 3 players i start to xi guan my pimple..
then performance still acceptable..
tink i still have to lost for 1 more year bah..
haiz!

lonely me...

life have been very busy for me.. lots of activities... lots of tutorials.. lots of training..
however, i still feel lonely at times...
why is it so? haiz..

not enough frens?
i feel that i realli don't haf any 'near' fren like last time... frens seemed to drift away from me..
izzit that i am not doing my part as a fren, or izzit that all of them are too busy to care...

or izzit that it's time for me to find a girlfren?
so that we can care for each other, and get warmth and console for each other? haiz.. i dunnoe..
i am all alone.. i feel..

lonely me...

nowadays dunnoe why will feel lonely..
haiz... life is so busy that i have no time to rest..
however... i still can't stop feeling lonely at times...
why is it so??
haiz...

so happi todae!!!

todae i like won whole of my life time wat i haven't won before..
dunnoe why todae i play so shun4 shou3...
just changed to that medium pimple make me won so many pple that i lost all the time...
but i tink that's just the beginning.. cos they are not used to my rubber yet..
after some time.. after they get used to it.. i won't win so easily liao.. or maybe will even dio qie! cos medium realli had not much power...
must continue to upgrade myself.. mentally esp!!
must muck up!!

just changed my rubber to medium pimples!

haha!
i changed to medium pimple..
monday go back ntu for training sure got pple suan me..
but nvm..
just try my best..
using smooth surface i already have no chu lu..
to find a way out,
i must realli master it!
use all it's advantages and avoid it's shortcomings..

lunar silver star story

wishing on a dream that seemed far off...
hoping it will come todae...
into the starlit nite..
foolish dreamers turn their gaze..
waiting on a shooting star...

but wat if that star is not to come...
will their dreams fade to nothing..
when the horizon darkens most,
we all need to believe
there is hope...

is an angel watching closely over me?
can there be a guiding light i've yet to see...
i know... my heart should guide me but...
there's a hole within my soul...

wat will fill these emptiness inside of me..
am i to be satisfied without knowing..

i will stand for a chance to see...
now wat i need.....
is my star to come....