finally i found out, wat kind of life i realli wan.. 

finally i found out, wat kind of life i realli wan..

from young, i am too zhi2 zuo2 about too many things...
i nv admit lose..
i can nv apologise to a person... cos i believe i will nv do any thing wrong...
till now i am still like that..
many things in life, i can't put down...
there are many things that i am too sensitive..
and there are many many many things that will affect my mood a lot...
i noe it's quite impossible for me to change..
cos one's character is almost developed and fixed at the age of teenager...
i always wanted a happi life, with a girl who love me, so that we can live the life of shen2 xian1 together..
nothing to trouble us, as long as we are together...
now i realised that with my character, i could nv find a girl like that...
even if one suddenly appear in my life, becos of myself, i will also spoil it...
now, i only wan to be happi...
no need to find a beautiful girl, or get national tabletennis champion, or get first class degree and earn lots of money..
i only wan to be happi..
that is, everything, i will just do my best.. and try not to be too affected by the outcome..
i know this is easy to say.. but hard to put into action..
i will just try..
happi is the key to life... the most complicated infinitive dimension matrix...